Still a Girl

You are hiding in your mind, working all the time. Trying to make it better than you got it. You been spendin’ all your time. Trying to make it better than you got it.

Close your eyes and clone yourself
Build your heart an army
To defend your innocence
While you do everything wrong

Don’t be scared to walk alone
Don’t be scared to like it
There’s no time that you must be home
So sleep where darkness falls

Alive in the age of worry
Smile in the age of worry
Go wild in the age of worry
And say worry, why should I care?

Now and then I pace my place
I can’t retrace how I got here
I cheat and lie to check my fates
It’s slightly harder than last year

And all at once it gets hard to take
It gets hard to fake what I won’t be
Cause one of these days I’ll be born and raised
And it’s such a waste to grow up lonely

So ride on up, take your place
And show your face to the morning
Cause one of these days you’ll be born and raised
And it takes you on without warning

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What to do when you miss something you’re not supposed to want back. What if you miss something that makes you cry more than it makes you laugh. What if you had a choice between moving on and forgetting or giving in and forgiving. What makes a stronger me ? How do you know you made the right choiche and didn’t just give up to early again on something which could have been beautiful. What if overthinking the pro’s and con’s doesn’t give a clear conclusion and the mind is too full of the memories. It seems so simple: Let everything stop reminding me of him and let my mind forget him, because he can’t give me what i deserve. The problem is; he does gives me everything i want..